Posts Tagged ‘Tired’
To Stress or Not to Stress
I feel blah … lol, I don’t know. I don’t think I feel either happy or sad. I have my Chem and Math midterms on Friday. I feel like I should be more worried because I haven’t done much studying but yeah …
Haha, this post is really vague, pointless and stupid. I think I’m just procrastinating more. I have to meet with my ASA group tomorrow to go over our presentation in discussion.
[Sigh] I don’t like presentations. I’m not good at public speaking; I know a lot of people aren’t either but it really stresses me out to talk in front of people. I don’t like being put in the spotlight and I don’t like having people stare at me. I don’t mind explaining something to a small group of people but when I have to stand up in front of the class, it really freaks me out.
Two years ago, in Media Academy, my group had to present our commercial, website and research on Republican candidate for the governor of California, Arnold Schwarzenegger. I memorized my part word for word without a sweat but when I had to say it front of the audience, my mind blanked out and I was struggling to get all the words out. My group members were staring at me (I think some of them were nervous for me) and I couldn’t focus. I really thought I was going to faint at the time.
Gosh, I miss Media Academy! One of my biggest topics to blog about on my Xanga was Media Academy. Haha, never thought I’d say this, but I miss LOGGING AND CAPTURING! I miss my teachers too, especially Ms. Thurston and Mr. Temple. I’ll probably never see them again. They’re too busy anyway.
I thought my life was finally turning around my Senior year of high school. I had something I was good at, something to look forward to. I was getting along with my friends and I got into Davis (my 1st choice). [Sigh] But I’m still as confused as ever! I don’t know what I’m going to do with my life.
I seriously feel that I have all the time in the world to sort things out. Like right now, I should be studying but I feel there’s enough time to blog. Lol, I can’t wait till Spring Break! I’m going to lie in bed and sort out all my thoughts.
“I have too long digressed, and therefore shall return to my subject.”
Oh yeah, I found out on Monday that my lab partner, Ray, dropped out of Chem. You do what you’ve got to do. I shouldn’t say I feel happy about him dropping, but it does make lab easier for me. It was frustrating for me to work with him, but I admit, he was really helpful with the last lab we did together.
Wahhhh, back to studying for Chem and Math. Most likely, just Chem tonight. I can’t wait till this week ends! But then I still have my ASA presentation to do on Tuesday. Life is sucky and depressing.
Currently Listening to: JJ Lin Jun Jie – High Fashion
