The Clouds Are Grey Today

Around Saturday I got a sore throat.  A lot of my friends are currently sick, but I didn’t think much of it.  I thought it was sore because I had eaten a lot of tortilla chips, but it’s slowly getting worse.

Me: I’m not sure if I’m sick yet, though, because I only have a sore throat.
Allison and Brian: That’s how it started.

I think either Allison or Brian got me sick.  Allison doesn’t cover her mouth when she coughs and although Brian does, he’s been giving me high fives and yeah … ’nuff said.

I feel like I’m swallowing rocks, and I feel like gagging if I talk for too long.

I procrastinated a whole lot last night.  I made a gecko out of pony beads, lol, and it took longer than I thought it would.  I couldn’t find any string so I used plastic ribbon (used to tie balloons) instead and I had to fold the ribbon to make threading through the beads easier.  It looks really nice though and I really like the colors.

I didn’t sleep last night because I was trying to finish my powerpoint on Girls in Early Fairy Tales for my Freshman seminar.  I felt excited when I found two themes (related to girls) emphasized in fairy tales –> the roles of women were subordinate to men in society and the importance of marriages for women in the Middle Ages.  And on the plus side, my Professor sent me an email commending me on my presentation skills.  Lol, she probably sent the same email to all the ones who had presented before me.  But I was happy that I didn’t choke because the girl who went before me had a lot of good information and I’m usually not good at public speaking.

I finished the powerpoint around 6:00am and took a shower and went to Chem lecture at 7:45am.  I wish I hadn’t gone because I only took one page of notes and wasn’t paying attention.  My time would have been better spent sleeping.

After my Freshman seminar ended at 10:50am, I rushed back to my dorm to sleep.  I set my alarm for 12:10pm so I would have time to go over the procedures for my lab at 1:10pm, but I turned off my alarm when it rang and reset it for 1:30pm.  Omg, idiot move!  I woke up at 1:15pm and rushed to lab.  I wasted time because I couldn’t find my cellphone and when I got downstairs and unlocked my bike, I realized I didn’t have my lab notebook or lab manual so I had to run back up and get it.

And, when I got there, my lab partner wasn’t there.  I didn’t really care; I worked with Anita and her lab partner instead.  We finished with time to spare, and I went to Math lecture.  And guess who was there?  My lab partner, Ray.  I still didn’t really care because 1. I’m not perfect, I was late to lab and 2. I got it (the experiment) finished.  It would’ve been more irritating to have worked with him anyway.  I don’t like leading other people, I rather just go with the flow and do what I’m told.

Then I biked back to the dorms to sleep.  Before my Math lecture though, I had asked my sister to buy me some non-drowsy medicine and cough drops.  At 5:00pm, I called her, but she was at her boyfriend’s place studying and that’s understandable but once she finished studying, she went to the ARC.  Omgosh, wth, it wouldn’t have made much of a difference to you if you just dropped off the medicine before you went to the ARC.  However it would be very helpful to me … gosh, it was annoying.

And when she came over to drop it off, I found out that she bought me liquid medicine … Omg, that’s stupid.  I haven’t drunk liquid medicine in such a long time.  It’s such a hassle, buying pills would’ve been more helpful and the medicine tastes gross.  Omgosh, I’ m a student in college, I think I can handle swallowing pills.  Don’t worry I won’t choke, you don’t have to buy me liquid medicine.

Currently Listening to: Can’t remember or wasn’t listening to anything, hehe …

Lol, what else is new?

Omgosh, I hate lab!  My partner is so ; I don’t know how to describe him (maybe I do, lol) but describing him would only annoy me more.

We didn’t have lab last week, so our section had two weeks to complete the post lab for the 1st experiment.  But Ray forgot about it and didn’t start it till the day it was due.  He calls me at 7:20am, because he couldn’t figure out the mass of the water measured with the pipet.  Lol, omgosh, all you have to do is take the mass of the flask and water and minus the mass of the flask to get the mass of the water.  Duh!

At 1:10pm …

Ray: Are you okay, you sounded a little annoyed this morning?
Me: That’s because I just woke up.
Ray: Oh really, I woke you up, I’m sorry.  I thought you were already awake for class (our Chem lecture is at 8:00am).
Me: Um, no.
Ray: Oh, did you go to class?
Me: Yeah.
Ray: Oh, I usually wake up an hour before class, you know, so I don’t fall asleep.

Haha, I’m sorry I can’t be as perfect as you.  Sure, my alarm was set to ring at 7:20am, the exact time that he called, but that’s beside the point.  Nobody likes getting calls that early in the morning from people they don’t want to talk to.

Ray: Do you like me?
Me: Um … I don’t really know you.
Ray: Well, you should get to know me; I’m a nice guy.
Me: …

A couple of minutes later …

Ray: Do you like me?
Me: … Sure.
Ray: I like you, too.
Anita: Hehe, she’s lying.
Ray: What?
Anita: She’s lying.
Ray: What?  Is that true?
Me: … Hahaha!

He’s just asking to get hit in the face.

(Convo with Seth about my lab partner)

(Lol, the grass is not greener on the other side and not every cloud has a silver lining.  The tooth fairy is not real and neither is Santa Claus.  That’s life in a nutshell.)

So, yeah, since we didn’t have lab last week, we skipped the 2nd experiment and did the 3rd experiment, but Ray didn’t get that memo even though it was announced in lecture, discussed in lab and printed in the syllabus.  Lol, you need to throw stuff in this guy’s face in order for him to notice these things.

Seth thinks that I’m mean (lol) because I was telling him how annoyed I was of my lab partner!  I feel so !  Dalen and Ryan, too.  I can tolerate a lot of things and when it comes to my friends, I’ll keep my mouth shut, but I can only take so much and someday, I’m going to crack –> because they keep teasing me about being mean.  I’m not usually a mean person, but it’s really hard to be nice in situations similar to this.   I know it’s hard to believe I’m not mean because my posts are so sarcastic, but my blog is a way for me to vent.  And I won’t say that I’m nice either, but it’s not like I eat babies –> lol, nor do most people but I’ll stop there because I’m making myself sound bad.

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I realize how much I don’t like Chem and Math, but my mom apparently wants me to major in BioChem.

Mom: We messed up with your sister, having her major in BioSci, so this time, we’ll get it right and have you major in BioChem.  Yes, you’ll be able to find a lot more jobs with a BioChem major than with a BioSci major.  You can’t do anything with BioSci these days.
Me: …
Mom: But if you do what Don is doing, you’ll be able to find even more jobs.  What is he doing again?
Me: Chemical Engineering.
Mom: Yes, Chemical Engineering, you’ll be able to find a lot of jobs.
Me: I can’t do that, that’s too hard.
Mom: Okay, stick with BioChem then.

Well, I’ve been extremely unproductive today!  I’ve spent most of my time today playing Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories, and blogging.  Hehe, I need to stop.  This is ridiculous.

KEY

Blue – Victim
Brown – Oppressor
Light Brown – Bystander

Lol, I’m so funny.  I still love you Mom.

Willie: Jenny, you and your tricks.

Currently Listening to: SS501 – U R Man

–> Flashback (to last week) <–

Ray: Are you good at Chemistry?
Me: (Uhh) Sure …
Ray: No, I’m serious.
Me: (Okay …) I don’t know, not really (The real answer is Hell No, lol!).  Are you good at Chemistry?
Ray: I could be. (What does that mean?!?  That you suck too?)

(Blah, blah, he starts asking me which subjects I was good at in high school)
Ray: Do you mind if we go look for some new lab partners?
Me: Uhh, you could.
Ray: We both should so we can get better grades.
Me: I don’t really care; I’ll just take whoever is left.

(Couple of minutes later, he comes back and starts talking again)
Ray: Okay, are you a good student? (Lol, he couldn’t find anyone else)
Me: …
Ray: Do you care about your grades?
Me: Yeah …

(Bleh, bleh, he asks a couple more questions along the same line)
Ray: Okay, I just didn’t want to be left with a slacker.

–> End Flashback <–

Omg, I hate my life. Lol, I don’t like it when people put pressure on me. I don’t like expecting phone calls from people I don’t want to talk to, and I don’t like making appointments with people I don’t want to meet (haha, because meeting people is that bad). But yeah, I do what the hell I want and when I want to! If i want to call you, then I’m going to call you.  And if I want to meet you, then I’ll flippin’ drop by. But seriously, don’t talk to me about how to do homework or college or anything else I’d rather not waste my free time thinking about.

Haha, so I had lab yesterday. It’s Chem 2A and the first lab, it should be easy. I don’t mind, sometimes, when I screw things up for myself but I hate dragging along others because of my mistakes.

That’s why I hate working in groups. Because either two things happen: you screw other people up OR they screw you up.

I don’t find myself dependable and I don’t find others dependable either.

I work really hard to make sure I don’t mess up other people’s grades, but I’ve been SCREWED so many times (wth?).

Let’s reminisce …

-My cousin (Tyson) in 3rd grade didn’t help AT ALL with our comets report.
-My partner (Sullene) in 4th grade didn’t help with our missionary report and claimed half of the credit.
-My reject group (London, Aaron, Justin and Jeff) in 8th grade didn’t help with our pioneer report. Omgosh, I trusted them to do their parts and they didn’t (two of them were absent on the day it was due, too). I turned in what I had and got a D. But I’m amazing and still pulled off a Super A in US History — lol, but middle school was easy peasy lemon squeezy.
-My group (Brad, Justin and David) in 10th grade did shitty (and barely any) work for our final project. I had to redo it all.
-My music video group (Lucero, Karina and Will) in 12th grade –> Omg! They hardly helped with our Media Academy music video project. That project stressed me out so much. They sucked, lol, just kidding, no really though, they didn’t do much. I logged and captured and edited SHIT till my eyes fell out. I worked through most classes, tutorials and late nights. Where were they?!?! I actually didn’t finish the video on time, but yeah, you know … whatever, I did my part and so MUCH MORE!

But okay, Introductory Laboratory Techniques –> my partner, Ray, was sick with “pneumonia” before the winter quarter had started, so he hadn’t been feeling so well. We’re in the same Math class too, and the homework was due that day, but because of his “pneumonia,” he didn’t finish his Math homework.

He didn’t realize that only like five problems had to be turned in …

Omgosh, seriously, the Professor repeated it soo many times, how hard is it to get?!!?  The problems with a tilda, you do but don’t turn it, the problems with an O, are optional (yes O for optional), and the problems with an asterisk, you TURN IN!

Ray: Really, seriously?! Can I see your homework?
Me: …
Ray: I normally don’t do this, it’s just that I’ve been sick.
Me: Uh, sure, but I don’t think I did all the problems correctly.

At the beginning of lab, he’s copying Chris’ homework (our classmate) instead of helping me with the experiment.

Ray: I swear, I’m usually not like this. (Haha, sure …)

But during Part C, I had him weigh the empty beaker and the beaker with the water and he took such a long time. Omg, you put it on the balance and you write down the number.

Ray: It (the mass) keeps changing.

Omg, it’s only a thousandth of a gram difference, pick one! Don’t spend five minutes every trial getting the mass.

And when we were heating the manganese(II) sulfate monohydrate, he started doing his Math homework again and kept rushing me to finish, omg!

Ray: You know, feel free to ask me for my contact info. so we could meet up and do post lab together.
Me: … Sure. (haha, I didn’t ask for it, and post labs are individual work, fyi, you Dipface!)

But who knows, maybe he usually isn’t like that, maybe it’s the pneumonia!

Lol, whatever. I don’t care, groups suck either way.

Currently Listening to: Brown Eyed Girls – How Come